Thursday, July 30, 2009

Next Time

I keep catching myself saying next time I will do this, and next time I will do that. I did so many things wrong, that next time I will do it right. Why am I doing this? I don't want there to be a next time. I don't want this is to ever happen again. I don't think I could make it through this again. My heart goes out to you ladies who have had to go through this more than once. I just feel like there is no hope anymore. I need to get that 'next time' crap out of my head.

1 comment:

  1. I always think that too. there was so many things that i wish i had of dont with my boys after they were born that when ever i think of it i think that at least next time i will know thats what i want to do. I hate thinking like that. I wouldnt be able to deal with it happening again either.
    I am sorry that you lost your boys. they are gorgeous.