Tuesday, August 4, 2009

4 month Angelversary

Today is Parker and Gavin's 4 month angelversary. Life is just so different from what I had imagine. Right now in my dreams I would have two newborn babies at home. I should be runnning on a few hours a of sleep and going crazy because they won't stop crying. Instead I am running on a few hours of sleep and going crazy because the pain of them not being here is unbearable. I miss them so much, more than anything. I would do and give anything to just hold them for one more day. All I can do is wish that one day I will again.


  1. Hugs to you Kayla. Try and do something to honor them even if its small like lighting a candle or planting something, I find it helps a little, just my thoughts. xo Nan

  2. So sorry Kayla. I know what you mean, I would do anything to have more time with my girls.

  3. Everything feels so wrong. I'm so sorry. Sending you lots of love.

  4. I hear you! I often get angry because I should be hearing a baby crying...not the sound of my own sobs. One day you will hold them again.