I cannot believe I have went this long without writing here. I am ashamed. This is exactly what I wanted to not happen. In no way have I forgotten about my boys, I think about them every day but I don't spend all my attention on them. Now that time has passed people don't bring them up anymore. When I was grieving, all my time and energy went to them. Now that time has passed and has healed my heart that is not true. I wish I could give them as much attention as I do Brooklyn but that will never be the case. I just don't know what to do. I miss them so much, and I wish they could be here with me.