Friday, January 29, 2010


I need some ideas to let this anger out of me. I have tried some writing, but that is not helping. Does anybody have ideas?

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Hard time

I am having such a hard time right now. I have no idea what is going on, but I am feeling so overwhelmed and stressed out. Some people in IRL are annoying the hell out of me. I am hating my living conditions. Nothing seems to be going my way. Even the little things.

I am also tired of seeing twins. Are they ever going to go away. Everyone has twins to show off, but not me. Mine are gone. And Regis and Kelly are holding their annual Beautiful Baby Contest right now. I should be sending in my babies photos, but I'm not. Mine were taken from me.

I just miss my babies so much. Life was not suppose to go this way. I just want them back, safe in my arms.

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Desperate Housewives

Has anyone been watching the new season. It is so sad. Lynette does lose one of the twins. The show that was on tonight, they talk about their true feelings of losing the baby, and it is exactly how I feel. I will always be thinking of how there should be two little boys running around. We will never get to meet our children. I wish things could be different. I want life to be the way I pictured it would be. I also wish I could put into words how I am feeling. Nobody in my real life can see my pain, or know that I am hurting. I am just so tired. I am going to try and get some sleep now.