I am having such a hard time right now. I have no idea what is going on, but I am feeling so overwhelmed and stressed out. Some people in IRL are annoying the hell out of me. I am hating my living conditions. Nothing seems to be going my way. Even the little things.
I am also tired of seeing twins. Are they ever going to go away. Everyone has twins to show off, but not me. Mine are gone. And Regis and Kelly are holding their annual Beautiful Baby Contest right now. I should be sending in my babies photos, but I'm not. Mine were taken from me.
I just miss my babies so much. Life was not suppose to go this way. I just want them back, safe in my arms.
I'm so sorry you are feeling like this right now. I am hoping that you find some peace and comfort soon.
ReplyDeleteI cringe when I see twins, too. And buying clothes for my son can bring me to tears when I see the little girl dresses on the other side of the store. I saw the cutest liite bathing suit for a baby girl, and I almost puked. It's as though the hurt will never really go away...
ReplyDeleteTry to do something for yourself that makes you feel good, even if it's just a nap, a hot bath, or a latte or something to give yourself some peace for a few minutes. When I feel liek I can't deal with the ppl IRL, I actually unplug my house phone for a few hours, hubs can reach me on my cell if he really needs to. It gives me the break, and quiet that I crave sometimes. If yu can't carve out alone time at home, maybe you could find some peae at the library, or a mall or someplace like that. I actually like to roam the mall aimlessly (I can't roam aimless outisde, it's too cold, and my neighbors have too many unleashed dogs...) window shopping and grabbing a cuppa and being alone with my thoughts can help me relax a little. I hope you can find something that works for you.
Wishing you peace. It seems like the 9 month time of year is harder for everyone...maybe because it's how the length of a pregnancy is usually described.
Seriously, there are twins everywhere. And if there aren't actual twin babies, there are twin mattresses or whatever else could possibly use the word "twins" in it. I'm sorry that things are so hard-I know that nothing I say will make it better, but I am thinking of you and sending hugs.
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