Sunday, July 12, 2009

Birthday Party

Tonight, Chad's family had a mixed birthday party for every one's birthday in July. Mine happens to be in July. It was a really nice gesture, but this birthday is not one for celebrating. My boys should be here with us. Chad's grandma brought her little dog, and everyone was fusing over her. Everybody should be fusing over newborn twins. Parker and Gavin are our first children, first grand children, and the first set of twins. You can imagine how much attention they would have gotten. Now they don't get any attention. It just hurts so much. I miss them more than anything, and every where I go I think that they should be here with us.

4 comments:

  1. Your sweet babies are being fussed over! They are being enjoyed by a heavenly family who are giving them a lot of love and attention. And one wonderful day you will hold your babies again in heaven. Until then, rest assured your boys are being loved and they are putting smiles on the faces of people like my daddy.

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  2. Thank you so much. You are so right. Sometimes I get caught up in this grief, and I forget that they are being loved in Heaven. I can't wait for that day when I get to hold my sweet babies again.

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  3. Kayla I wish I could have been more sensitive to your feelings. Of course we would be making a huge fuss over Gavin and Parker, and yes I really wish from the bottom of my broken heart that they could have been here as well. I was just hoping for a second that we could see a glimmer of light in your eye for yourself. You so deserve to have happiness.
    I just know that Gavin and Parker want to see their mommy happy again and not be so sad for them, They would want you to be happy because they love you, they now have the angels to take care of them. You can take comfort in that. I love you and Chad so much.

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  4. I am so sorry about the loss of your sweet little boys. Although I hate that other parents have to endure this pain, I take comfort in knowing I am not alone. Grief is a powerful journey and a lifelong process of healing. You are in my thoughts.

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