The Things That Will Never Be

People suggested that maybe it was less difficult that they didn't live longer. I struggle with this. We will never see the color of their eyes or hear their cries. We will never change their diapers or give them baths. They will never crawl, walk, or run. They will also never drive, date, get married, or have children of their own. 

The truth is there is no "easier" way to lose a child. It sucks. It is hard. It is unfair, so unfair. This is literally the worst thing that will ever happen in my life. I would give anything to just hold them one more time.