Monday, December 7, 2009

Our friend is expecting

I just found out that a friend of Chad and mine is expecting. I am so upset. Why am I so upset? I should be happy for them, I guess. Even though we are expecting also, it is not the same. I just imagine Chad and I having our boys and everyone being crazy over them. Now they are going to have a baby around the same time. I sound crazy and I don't know how to put what I am feeling in words. It just should not be this way. Its not fair. I want my boys back. Why my sweet, innocent boys!
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  1. BreeDecember 7, 2009 at 8:00 PM

    totally get it! i don't want anyone having babies before i at least get one living one. i have a handful of friends that are due within the same week as me. that angers me too. because if i lose another baby, odds are they won't. and, i get to watch them have their babies when i should have had mine.

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  2. 2andcountingDecember 7, 2009 at 8:44 PM

    That is exactly how I feel. What if something goes wrong with this baby? I am hurting and people don't see it. They don't get the hurt of losing a child. People around me that are pregnant still have that innocence. I don't have that anymore.

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  3. TinaDecember 7, 2009 at 8:46 PM

    I already have living children and I still have these feelings you describe. I am fortunate that since I am older, my circle of friends is older and done having babies for the most part. But I did just find out that one of them is pregnant and it really is bothering me. I think part of it is that SHE hasn't tlaked to me about it yet and that they will probably go along and have 9 months in blissfull ignorance while I will be worrying the entire time...You are right...IT IS NOT FAIR!!! I want my babies back too. xx

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  4. These kids' mamaDecember 29, 2009 at 8:54 PM

    I too can relate to this. When I told my friend that every time I go to the bathroom I'm scared I'l see blood and I carried full term with both my daughters. My problem isn't the pregnancy, it's the delivery that scares the hell out of me. She says, "don't worry, it will be fine". But how do these people KNOW? They can't, not if they haven't had a loss. Another thing, I don't think these people understand that (and I can't speak for all of us) if we hadn't lost our children, we wouldn't be pregnant again right this moment. While I am grateful for this pregnancy for sure, I would gladly trade it for a living crying baby girl.

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